Fiona is finaly settling into her new home, and I’m thinking about getting her a friend still. I’m a little worried that two little rat friends might be too much to handle as they are rather difficult to keep in one place.

Just a quick mention while I’m on the topic of fast rodents, any sonic fans out there should take a look at this movie I found while reminiscing by myself late at night on the internet.

I’m really anxious about certain events to come, the most prevelant of which would be the return of my senior lead Randy. In order for you to fully understand why, I’ll have to give you some back story. Aproximately two weeks ago, both of the senior leads on my shift at work had decided to go on vacation to places of tropical nature. During this time we had a substitute lead come in from day shift by who we call Terri. Now, Terri and I normaly get along quite well and her time with us seemed no different… untill the very end of the last night that should would be with us.

On this particular night I was the only person of a group of about five on our current test to actually meet goal and I exceeded it. While working on this test, I was using remote desktop to develop a php program that would increase efficiency, reduce mistakes, and make the operators life’s easier at our work. So most everyone agrees that not only was I being a productive employee, I was doing far work than what I was being paid for.

Somehow, this totaly all went right over Terri’s head and she scolded me for using the internet. I tried to explain to her that this was part of specialized teams project, and that I had been informed before that internet use was acceptable at work for things that were work-related. She told me that was not true and demanded that I tell her where I had heard this. I told her that I had seen it in one of our manuals, and that “someone” had told me it was ok. She asked me who told me that and I said “Randy”, she then went so far as to ask “Randy who?” as if I would take any Randy beside “Lead Randy’s” opinion on the matter. She then told me to stop, once more, although I already had and I agreed I would not anymore without permission.

The following monday I came in to work feeling much better as I had a fairly stressfull weekend but it had its highlights and I was excited. I saw Terri there and assumed that perhaps she was going to stay with us another day, but instead she asked me to follow her, and I did. She didn’t really give me a destination untill we reached a meeting room where she told me I would be waiting to talk to Eugene Coulborne. This man probably has more power within our company at this location than anyone else, except perhaps one other person. The second I was told who this man was, my spine straightened and every hair on my neck stood on end, since I had a pretty good idea of why I was here.

Eugene then began to talk to me about the security hazards entailing internet use (none of which apply to remote desktop), and how it was against HP policy (I’ve read HP policy manuals back and forth, it’s not). The whole while all I could think was “Why is this man lecturing me for being productive?”. I really wanted to stand up and walk away, or say something in my defense, but in the finacial situation I am now, I really couldn’t. I sat, and I listened, and I nodded my head and just tried to think of a way to make this right, and finaly he said something that was perhaps beneficial to my project, “If you need internet access to work on a project you need to right a proposal and give it to me first.” My mind quickly reacted to that ray of hope for my project and I asked him the moment I had a chance to how I would get my proposal to him. He told me to send him an email with my proposal attached as a word file, which is now completed and waiting in a directory at work.

Now the only thing standing in my way really is, me. I don’t know if I want to do it anymore. After so much drama (and there is more to that situation that I havn’t said) and work simply to do something that would be nothing but beneficial to my work, I began to wonder if they deserved it. I have no problem against most of my co-workers, but those who are in charge are somewhat dissapointing me because all they have provided me with recently is dead ends. I was even placed on a “busy test” today and I’m fairly certain it was intentional so that I wouldn’t have the time to work on this project even locally.

All I really want anymore is to get back in school, pay off my debts, and get to my real career, which I will hopefully find a means to make money for soon.

Alright, so I got Windows Vista up and running, and I love the UI. It’s gorgeous, beyond belief. I will most likely reserve a copy if and when that’s at all possible.

I broke down and purchased a PlayStation 2 yesterday, as well as FFX. The exact PS2 I got was a V14 (slim) PS2 and supposedly, as those DVD qwirks have been removed from the console which means Alex and I now have a proper DVD player as well. I’m a little tight with money again cause of it, but it felt good to finaly be able to treat myself to something after being for just bills for a while.

That same day I searched Vancouver for a new companion to Replace Frederico de Moreles, and found Fiona. She is a small purely white rat with red eyes and a very nice tail. There is no discoloration on her at all. She’s probably by far the most attractive rat I’ve owned. I may still get that himilayan on the 18th of March depending on Fiona’s temperment, if she seems alright alone I’d rather just have her but if she seems like she needs company I might get her a little friend.

This weekend besides that was somewhat stressfull. The scrambled eggs / breakfast party totaly bombed, mostly because I assume people read my website. I guess I wasn’t really updating often enough to assume that, but I realy have recently and thought that people have noticed.

Last night when I went to bed I was totaly feeling stressed, and this morning when I arose it still hadn’t subsided. At first I thought it was related to the aforementioned “bomb” that occured but then I realised that I really wasn’t upset about that. I can think of a few choice other things I’m sort of upset about still, but none of them make any sense. The whole not in school thing yet still upsets me, and the fact that I still havn’t done my taxes, but I havn’t let either of those things stress me out too much. I’m probably just being hormonal or retarded.

I’m probably returning to FFXI, again. I really am a FF whore I realised. Most of them are so good though! There really arn’t too many RPGs out there these days besides FF either. At least, not any big name ones. I hear there is a new “of Mana” game coming to the DS soon which excites me! There are a million other things I need to save for first though.

Wow. Spent the first hour of my day cleaning the kitchen. I estimate I used about 10 gallons of water. I know I know I know. Conservation. According to my research, 10 gallons of water is enough to bathe 5 children. Interestingly enough, this is also the same amount require to properly boil about 2.5 children (sic). The results of my research raised fascinating questions about the relationship between the resource of water and children, in this case, food.

Maniacal

So after a long, somewhat dumb, and drawn out fight with Alex, I recalled a small peice of information about women’s breast having evolved from thier posterior and that it may be the reason why men are so attracted to breast (as well as others). I looked it up on the internet and found out that is was a man named Desmond Morris. He’s often referred to as a “Psuedo-Scientist” but I’m not so sure that’s a fitting title.
The way this theory goes exactly is certain primape female’s buttox will swell somewhat to show the males that she is ready to “do the deed”. Human females however are bipedal, and thus the rear isn’t exactly the best place to advertise anymore, so human males needed some other indication that it was “go time”. This all sounded logical enough to me except I always believed that human women intionaly hide signs of ovulation so that the male would have to stick around and keep trying thus protecting the woman and her coming offspring.

Perhaps someone else could help clear up how much truth there is in Morris’ theory.

Just so everyone knows, there is a scrambled eggs breakfast party going on saturday morning or afternoon, depending on when people decide to wake up. You have the option of staying over the night prior or you can just come the morning of the event. For more details call me.

I’m not certain at this point who I have or have no mentioned this to, but I will go ahead and say it here now. Last fridayat around six in the evening my rat, Frederico de Moreles, passed away. The exact cause is unkown although it is most likely due to mycoplasma a bacterial organism that lives in the lungs of almost all fancy rats. His brother died of it, and most likely it finaly affected Freddie as well.

Yesterday was a very interesting day and I had written a long post about it, but a power surge struck HP and many computer and printers were affected by it, my data entry pc included, so I had lost it all and couldn’t find the strength to post again. The highlights were basicly:

A) I took care of Brenda because she was sick on Sunday, the day I had planned for us to celebrate Valentine’s day.
B) She took care of me on Tuesday
C) I didn’t sleep much Tuesday

And now, I am eagerly anticipating Friday as I have roughly sixty four cents in my bank account right now and friday is payday. At least I’m fairly well stocked on food so I know I won’t starve, but I forgot to bring a lunch to work and I havn’t eaten today so I will be very hungry for a while.

Also note: I’m exclusively using GoogleTalk write now for instant messaging. There are a few reasons for this but the main one is I’m boycotting AIM, they’ve gone too far with that whole “triton” thing of theirs. I refuse to even connect to thier network anymore. MSN is alright, but a little bloated. Yahoo: why would would ever use that? GoogleTalk is really the perfect messenger. It’s small, light, attractive, and it has integrated support for gMail. So if you’d like to talk to me while I’m at work GoogleTalk is your best bet.

Yesterday was a fairly nice day, I made my girl some lasagna and a ceasar salad, bought her red carnations, chocolate, heart shaped bright pink pillow. All and all a nice evening except for one thing, she was sick the entire night. I didn’t mind taking care of her, but it sort of put a damper on things.

It seems brittnee may be working with me at veritest fairly soon. They desperately need people and Beth pretty much told me that so long as my name was on an application it would get accepted.

I left work late, about a half hour and now I get to play with Alex since he’s awake which makes me happy.

Alex: Sakura…i feel dirty thinking about Sakura.
Amanda: lol
Amanda: sakura as in.. cardcaptor sakura?
Amanda: I’m going to make her tsubasa outfits
Alex: I wish i was hot enough to go as Yue.
Amanda: oh god yue

I’ve beta tested both Dungeons & Dragons Online and RF Online recently, and to be quite honost they both felt like they were missing something. DDO for one, has far too many dungeons and lacks the ability to simply go out and wander and kill things, aka “Grind”, I really like grinding but I understand that’s not everyone’s thing and many people will probably enjoy DDO. RF Online really just isn’t what I want graphically, and the gameplay itself isn’t anything better than the other games I have, the community is quite selfish (already) and was just an over-all dissapointment for me.

The games I’m actually still looking forward to at this point are Oblivion (Be mine, Patrick Stewart!), The World of Warcraft expansion, Ragnarok Online II, Phantasy Star Universe, and the new Finaly Fantasy Expansion: Treasures of Aht Urhgan. I obviously can’t afford to play all of those, so I will need to find a way to just try them out and settle on the best one.

(says it all)