A WordPress update was released quite some time ago, and I totaly missed it. I’m at work now so I can’t update it but I will be sure to do so some time tonight. I was a damn good worker today, and I deserve like forty or so medals for it, but I will settle for a pat on the back from my co-workers or perhaps a milkshake.

Oblivion has taken most of my time since its arrival and World of Warcraft has once again managed to find a way to captivate my holy-priest heart. With its most recent patch making holy priest slightly less sucky, I once again feel motivated to go out and kill monsters aimlessly for hours.

The Final Fantasy XI expansion pack sounds like a good thing as well. I’m not sure if it’s out already or if it will be soon but I’m hoping that it will at least pretend to fix the main problem the game has, and always had, Its complete lack of soloability. There isn’t anything else about the game I can complain about and if they were to fix that I’d go back in a heart beat.

It’s been quite a while now since I’ve made a post, kinda busy with work, and my life has been partialy in dissaray right up untill yesterday when I simply decided not to care anymore. All that stuff that has been stressing me out is totaly out of my head now and I’m remarkably content.

My birthday is coming up, as well as Brenda’s, and I’ve no idea what I should plan for the event. I want something fun, and I want to have a little something to drink. I’m going to try to get my parents to buy me something a little nicer this year, but doubt that will go over very well. I sort of want to go on a beach trip somewhat soon and I really want to go to the butterfly event being held at the Oregon Zoo in April (May maybe?).

I have been working on yet another design for the site too, without much success, but when I lost my other one in the great format of ’06 I started searching for themese and I think I’m going to stick with the butterflies but do them differently.

I really wanted to do some many things this morning, and instead decided to sleep untill 3 in the afternoon. Since I work at four that pretty much only left me with enough time to dread over work. Once I arrived at the lab and set up for work I did get a bit of good news, I would be training Brittnee!

Brittnee and I had so much fun! We sang pretty much all day long, though she was a little overly fond of stealing the spot light, I totaly enjoyed our choruses through Cranberries and Lisa Loeb. She reminded me of how much some of this music can effect me though and hearing Gin Blossoms again made me somewhat depressed, though that may not entirely be because of the music.

I really need to get back on track with the many things in my life that I have allowed to trail off course. I really think my relationship with Alex may be one of those things, I feel like maybe we’re growing more distant and I don’t want that. Especially since I think it may mostly be my own fault.

After work we had a mini-cake party and Anne and Cody came along, which made me really happy. I have some saved for Brenda as well, hopefully I’ll have a chance to give that to her some time soon. If I can convince her to drop by tommorow I’d love for her to have a slice. During the party, I was sort of told I looked like a twink. Not too long ago, I would have maybe thought that was true, now though it sort of hit a sore spot. I really think I’ve filled out a good amount and maybe it’s still true that I look like one or maybe I deserved to be told I did but I still didn’t like it.

I managed to spill all sorts of things on myself today including goddess dressing, hot cider, hot cocoa, and hot cheese. I should really stop eating all together, it’d solve so many of my problems including my inability to seperate food from my clothing.

I really desperately need a second job. I’ve been looking and can’t seem to find one, but just one job isn’t cutting it. I’ve so many things to do tonight, and I’m really far too tired to do any of them. If I could just find someway to skip this presentation at work tommorow I would probably save myself a good deal of heart ache and get something done for once. I’m cold, tired, lonely, and upset so here are some lyrics

Garbage – The Trick is to Keep Breathing
She’s not the kind of girl
Who likes to tell the world
About the way she feels about herself
She takes a little time in making up her mind
She doesn’t want to fight against the tide

And lately I’m not the only one
I say never trust anyone

Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you’ll get what you want this time around

Can’t bear to face the truth
So sick he cannot move
And when it hurts he takes it out on you

And lately I’m not the only one
I say never trust anyone

Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you’ll get what you want this time around

The trick is to keep breathing
The trick is to keep breathing

She knows the human heart
And how to read the stars
Now everything’s about to fall apart
I won’t be the one who’s going to let you down
Maybe you’ll get what you want this time around
I won’t be the one who’s going to let you down
Maybe you’ll get what you want this time around

The trick is to keep breathing

So I gave up junk food for lent (in general). Mainly because I spend most of my money on junk food, and that’s not good for me or my wallet. I don’t know what I’m going to do for lunch at work, probably alot of sandwiches and bottled water.

My room is entirely in dissaray, like worse than it’s been in a long time and I’m sort of appalled at myself. I will probably spend the majority of tommorow cleaning but tonight I’m way exhausted.

I need more money so if anyone knows of a second job I can pick up on weekends (friday, saturday, or sunday) that would be fantastic.

I can’t find the words to describe how frustrated I’ve been feeling. Yesterday basicly went exactly how I thought it would, except a litle worse. Randy is reacting pretty much how I expected him to, understandably so. Chances are he was pretty border-line stable in his position anyways, and I toppled it. I really want to talk to him openly about it, but I know that probably is a bad idea and I will wait and hope for the best.

There are a couple more things that happened, but I’m not entirely at liberty to talk about those. At least Brittnee will be joining us here soon, I’m so psyched about that.

For those of you who care, it’s ash wednesday today. I’ve decided to give up candy for lent. Forty days and counting … God I could use some candy.