Forever Young.

How more romantic could a declaration of continued ignorence and naive-ness be. Truth is, everyone has access to–and enjoys this eternal youth. Some more than others. I have become of aware of an increasing sense of mortality emenating, primarily, from my bank account. Now money has never really been a goal of my life, only to have enough, but recently as it seems to bleed away. Many factors contribute to the uncertainly i feel for the future. There’s some comfort to be taken in the responbility i feel for my life, but that is often deceptive–both responbility and fault. The funny little idiosyncrasies of this universe are deadly, the good humored mind learns.

I’ve recently had a very hard time keeping my temper under control and I’ve been causing problems for various different people, but I think that is no longer going to be a problem. I think a large part of the problem was I felt like I had nothing to be excited about anymore and I sort of buried myself in a landslide of emotions that I probably could have avoided had I paid a little more attention to my own advice.

I’m going to be doing some minor changes to the layout soon. It’ll look pretty much the same but I want it to work on the Sidekick III and on the Nintendo DS Opera browser, so untill that is released I probably won’t do too much to it except finalize the other pages and perhaps to add a couple of sections depending on how a couple of my private projects go. I don’t want to say too much because I’m afraid of criticism but those people who I feel safe talking to about it with will know soon.

I feel so broken. I’ve lost about six pounds in the last week, not entirely sure how or why, but most likely related to this horrible anxiety I’ve felt since before leaving to California. I’m having a hard time finding the motivation to do anything. I actually had made plans to go register my car right now but I have no gas money, I can’t get a hold of my parents, and my friends are working so I’m pretty much stuck at home. I did manage to mail out Brittnee’s letter for her which I’m sure she’ll be happy to hear.

Tonight is Shari’s night, hopefully I’ll be able to compose myself by then. Aaron really has enough on his plate right now and I want to be able to help.

As we forge, ever so mercilessly, ahead in life new realizations continue to dawn upon our frail minds. Often, these reveletions are ruinous; for they feed on our safe, pre-concieved notions and ideas–yet, it is this critical gap between expected and

I spent the entirety of the previous weekend in Los Angeles, California, and I had a wonderfull time. I was accompanied by Brittnee, Kelly, and Aaron. The adventure started off rather reluctantly with several problems interfering with the ignition of the trip. The morning of our departure I was supposed to transfer the title of my vehicle to my name and renew my tabs. This turned into an ordeal much bigger than it really should have been. First I drive out in source of the Auto Licensing center out on Mill Plain, and I managed to drive past it not once, but twice! I’ll write up more details on that and compile a collection of pictures so I can make a page dedicated to the story of the trip, with pictures!

The USDA some time ago decided the pyramid should be sideways, and that different people should use a different pyramid (wow). If you go to mypyramid.gov and enter some information about yourself you will be given a pyramid that is a little better tailored to you. The site itself provides a wealth of information on why it’s important to eat healthy and tips on what you can do to feel better about your dietary decisions. I’ve already printed a copy of this for myself and have posted it on the fridge with the intent of hopefully getting healthier eventually. My pyramid actually recommends that I have 2800 calories instead of the popularized 2000 calorie recommendation often seen way back in the day. I honostly don’t think I eat nearly that many calories which would sort of explain why I’m so sickeningly thin.

-Miro Out