I left work yesterday morning at seven in the morning with the knowledge that I’d have to be back at seven in the evening for a second shift so when I arrived at home I immediately went to bed so that I could rest before heading back and each time I fell asleep I woke up again in about forty five minute intervals. So rather than waking up sometime after noon feeling well rested and ready for work, I had to drag myself out of bed at about six fifteen.

When I did so I found my parents had a good deal of company over for Christmas Eve and I was caught in my “pajamas”. I showered and dressed myself as quickly as I could and when I went back out dressed in my uniform I was teased by a bunch of forty year old women about how handsome I was, both dressed formally and mostly undressed. I speed to work assuming I’d arrive just on time and found instead that I had arrived about twenty minutes early.

Work actually went pretty well, there wasn’t much in the way of traffic since our hotel is mostly business oriented (though we do sometimes take in the occasional “couple” who are looking for a night “alone”) and for some reason businesses feel the need to slow down around this time of year.

On my way home I picked up Brenda and we were greeted by my mother and what had to have been well over a hundred tamales. We ate dinner hastily since it was close to midnight and when we finished we went straight to the living room to open presents. My mother actually received the most gifts this year, about time too seeing as how she tends to do more than anyone else in the house. I received two-hundred and fifty dollars to go toward a guitar which unless Brittnee forgot, I’m going to go purchase on Tuesday.

I’ve been so busy recently it feels like I never have time to just sit and do nothing anymore. I know it’s not true because I tend to use the mid-part of sunday to relax but I end up doing something in the evening and of course I work untill 7am sunday so I sleep away the afternoon. Most every night I’m spending time with someone and I really don’t mind I love the time I have with my friends and girlfriend but I need to find some time in the week that I can allocate to myself so that I can get things done. The only chance I have to spend alone anymore is when I’m sent home from work and pretty soon that might not be an option as it seems I may be switching positions and that may require me to work monday through friday from 8 to 4. I suppose I’ll sort that through later, I’m going to take a trip to Washington Square Mall with Brenda for now.

So last night at job#2 I was told that there is a very good chance that I will be receiving a dollar raise come January. I’ve been given whole dollar raises before, but since this is the first one I’ve received since starting job#1 (about a year and a half now) I’m all super excited. Besides that, same old same old.

I have been so tired of my “main” employer. Honestly, the work itself isn’t all that bad, in fact it’s kind of easy. My only problem with it is that many of the skills required to do well in that job go unappreciated, sure most people out there these days have some experience with Microsoft Office, but not every one. It’s still a skill that should be somewhat appreciated monetarily. Working in a technical environment that is bad for your health should be appreciated as well, the aerosol in the air from those printers actually is causing health problems; sinus issues, migraines, and respiratory problems. There are many of us who go work in enclosed chambers where the temperature and humidity is being monitored and controlled by devices that can and have malfunctioned in the past. Despite all this the people working day shift are doing it for 8.00 an hour, and in Washington state the minimum wage is scheduled to go up to 7.93 in January. So we are working in a combination office / laboratory setting that requires skills and sacrifices that involve both and making hardly more than minimum wage, though on my shift we do get a forty cent differential because we work from 4pm to 2am Monday through Thursday. On top of all this there is absolutely no chance that we will be awarded raises at any point, our wages are static and set by position. I once fought to change that and have the people who deserved it receive raises, maybe not necessarily myself although you’d think after a year of loyal service I’d get something, but instead I received a rather large and somewhat assaulting letter telling me that raises were possible and that they were just something that was out of reach at the moment. It’s the same excuse that’s been fed to us for more than a year and I for one don’t entirely buy it.

Today at least I was able to feel some relief when those meager wages afforded me the ability to give gifts to all of my friends, something I’ve always really been excited about. We had a rather large group at Shari’s and I was so happy to see everyone’s face when they saw what I acquired for them.

I’m feeling really anxious about everything and it’s making me sick. I woke up in a puddle of my own blood this morning (from a nose bleed) and I had a horrible sore throat so I called in and my supervisor passed on a message to Brittnee to tell me that the attendance thing was starting to become an issue which didn’t at all help the anxiety problem. I think though I may be able to get over it soon. I applied for another position as a project assistant and if I don’t receive the position or if my wages don’t go up this coming January I don’t think I will be with this employer much longer.

Sort of exciting Christmas Event this Thursday at Shari’s! I have gifts for most everyone! It looks like I may have to pick up a couple more though. I received the last of my packages today with the exception of the new Microsoft keyboard I ordered from Newegg. It’s ergonomic still but isn’t raised so that it saves some space and it has media hot keys that aren’t tacky looking. It should actually arrive at my place some time this morning after I wake up.

I haven’t worked on creating a totally whole new layout in my own style for some time, mainly because I was rather shy to modify any of the parts of word press I would need to modify to out put the kind of results I want. I think I’m over that fear though and I’m going to put the site under renovation sometime close to Christmas when I (hopefully) have time off work.

Wow just under went a major renovation, and finally appears to be working. I retrieved most of my mods but the servers bearing some of the mods I use seem to be over loaded at the moment so I’ll just have to play with the basics for now. I did manage to pick up the new version of ShardAce so I won’t have to worry about my fun demon wielding character.

I think I may have upset Kimsean though Audra and Brittnee assure me that it isn’t my fault I can’t help but think his sudden mood change may have been related to something I said.

P.S. Good luck to Brenda and Alex and your finals!

So now that my fever is subsiding and I’m spending time out of the house again (oh yeah I forgot to mention I was sick the last couple of days and that my nose is STILL bleeding) things have been slowly looking up for me. Aaron and I had a good long chat and he showed me his seduction style thing, so I decided I would take the quiz and find out mine, I’m not sure sure how true it is but I would certainly like to believe so.

I’ve been roped into fixing yet another persons computer this week. I’m so tired of doing this and getting little more than a thanks. I wouldn’t mind if it wasn’t so constant, or if I had any time to myself anymore. I can’t seem to manage my time at all though with two jobs. I really hope that I get things payed off soon so that I can maybe drop a job and have a little more me time. Even if I go back to school at least then I’d feel like I was doing something good for myself.